I trust you will get this letter wherever you are. I’m writing to you because I have a very special request. This isn’t your typical prayer because I’m not asking for something small. I’m also not asking for you to intervene and restore peace in the growing number of war torn countries, to end world hunger and poverty, to heal disease, or to make my dreams come true (although all of those would be awesome)…but I am asking for a miracle. In fact, this is the biggest, most significant, and most important thing I’ve ever asked for.
I want to know you.
Like really know you.
I want to know who you are, what you’re all about, and what you’re like.
I’ve spent my whole life being told by others who you are and who you’re not, what you are and what you’re not, how you are and how you’re not, and everything in between. I’ve been told where I would find you and where not even to bother looking. I’ve seen so many different depictions and pictures of you, and I’ve heard countless stories about you, including many people’s personal accounts of their experiences of you.
I’ve heard it said that you are Love and that I only need to look within to discover you. When I think about that, my heart lights up, and yet so many people become closed and shut down at the mere mention of your name. In my lifetime, I’ve also witnessed senseless tragedies and acts of violence committed in your name and several disasters signaling the decline of our planet and civilization. Some say that if you really existed, you would have intervened, and others say that these things have happened because we have created them with the free will that you gave us.
Throughout all of this, I admit that I’ve had my moments of doubting you and questioning you, but deep down in my heart and soul, my faith and belief in you have always remained strong.
Now I’m coming straight to you. I’m going to the source and asking you to let me get to know you, to reveal your true nature to me so that I might live in complete alignment with you and give my life to serving your purpose. That’s what I really want more than anything else, and in order to do that, I feel I really have to know you, and our connection has to be direct, personal, intimate, and undeniable.
I know there’s this tricky thing about faith, which says that true faith is measured by our belief in that which we haven’t seen, experienced, or had proof of.
I hear that, and I understand it.
Rest assured, this request is not a question of faith. I have faith. A heart full of it. I believe you are real. I know you exist. I have no doubt about that whatsoever. I am not asking for a sign or for proof of any of that.
I’m asking to know who you are. I want to feel your presence and recognize it the way a child knows his mother’s touch or the sound of his father’s voice. I want to know you so closely that I can be as cozy with you as I am with my best friends, knowing that you get me and that you are there for me even when I’m not making sense or going off the rails.
God, wherever you are and whoever you are, I’m ready to receive you with open arms and a heart full of love.
I’m ready to live my life to serve your purposes and to further your cause. With my own free will, I’m coming to you and asking you to let me in, let me see you, not obscured by others, no degrees of separation, completely revealed, as the true essence of who you are.